Uhhh so I read half of Heart of Darkness then didn't even try on the questions. Well at least I kept my integrity and didn't entirely bs the questions.

Yesterday I bought a 3 pound bag of Haribo gummy bears. I hope I don't get sick.



C (10:41:09 PM): did u find the answers online?
C (10:41:15 PM): or did u actually go thru hard labor this time
j Y k 5 9 5 (10:41:26 PM): Hard labor
C (10:41:29 PM): oh dammit
j Y k 5 9 5 (10:41:32 PM): AND I went over it with liz
C (10:41:35 PM): :O!
j Y k 5 9 5 (10:41:36 PM): It really asn't that bad
C (10:41:36 PM): sick.

HAHAA

Is it in human nature to let oneself down? No stimuli is causing this degrading, but it's an internal struggle. Perhaps it's the negatively narrow-minded society we live in affects us way too much. I know people have "distractions" to counter this way of thinking; I just wonder what mine is.

I hate it when friends decide to go to different schools. I'll know a few acquaintances but basically I have to start over now.

I'm going shopping for Prom stuff in a bit!

And for all the skeptics, TRY reading Heart of Darkness. I know it's a lot to cram in by Tuesday but it's honestly not a bad read.

Green

So like a quarter of the population, I'm gonna try to be more eco-friendly from now on.

-Instead of plastic bags, I bought a huge Ikea bag today and decided to do all my shopping in that one bag from now on. 57 cents too!
-Water shall not be wasted.
-Once I get over my phobia of tap water, I'll start carrying a reusable bottle holder instead of buying so many plastic bottles.
-College means of transportation will strictly be limited to walking, bicycling, and the BART. However I can't do much about the airplane ride (which by the way contributes to about 2% of all pollution in the sky).
-My next car (probably in four years) will either be a Prius or the SmartCar. I've seen a couple of them around LA and I already love them!
-More organic cotton t-shirts (American Apparel started selling them in nice pastel colors) to avoid toxic dye.
-Cruise in the car between 45-60 mpg, since that's what the EPA says is the most efficient rate.

Give me tips!!!

Go Bears!

The trip up to the Bay Area was simply amazing. Words cannot begin to describe how excited I am to actually be part of a thriving campus. Though at times it seems as if all the students do is study, the atmosphere for it is so right. Everything just becomes as an extension of who I am as a person and I feel like I belong in such an intimidating space. I know I felt slightly intimidated when I first went into high school, but it becomes no big deal. As long as I find myself there, I'm content.

First Love

Got me thinking again...

A convention is a convention is a convention

So there's nothing special bout a KIWIN'S party. SORRY. Maybe it's just me being the pessimistic (haha, right) bitch that I am. However, I'm gonna join Circle K later.

Just a quick update while Wilson has to go to the restroom right now.

Mall

Has anyone noticed how useful, economically and socially, malls are? Simply put, they create lots of jobs, keep money circulating, and encourages consumer spending, which in turn looks favorably as American buyers. It's a shame that less people are heading over to the mall.

Maybe I just like the mall too much.

The rush attacks again!

Yes, I'm feeling that sense of loneliness again. It's funny how it tends to hit me periodically in waves. Nothing like a little mellow music and candles to ease things.

I was thinking and realized that in college, I'll be open to so many dating possibilities. I won't have to settle as much or be worried that I won't be able to have a sensible conversation. It excites me that many prerequisites that I've established will already be met just by acceptance into the college. Stoked!

I was trying to kill time today and went shopping for a desktop/laptop at Apple today. I'm 80% sure as of now that I'm gonna get an iMac for the dorm and a black MacBook. After having a long talk with the employees, the Air really isn't worth it. Plus, my tendency to get things stolen will be diminished by getting a regular MacBook. I think my parents can at least buy those for all the money I'm saving them, right? Well ~$3,000 total. =T

I'm going to take a six hour rest, then get back to Passage. Talk about a let downer.

Can't spell SUCK without USC

Now I'll slowly try to detox myself from this "Go Trojans!" feel I've gathered for the last year or so. It truly wasn't worth spending the energy to cheer for a team when I was part of another to begin with. From another perspective, I see many positives of not becoming "another one of those" USC students. Get myself out of the tornado while I can, right?

Well since I figure no one's going to read this, I'm going to talk about something that's seriously been irking me. I tend to shrug little things off and not make such a big deal about them but this one won't seem to go away. So here's the dilemma: As I was going to ask one of my best hags to Prom, a friend of hers disappointingly said that she would rather go with a "man." At first I was a little confused and irritated that someone I considered so dear to me would rather refuse me for being too feminine and asking for a "real date" than suck it up for one night (although it is a big night) and let a man have his mercy. It kind of hit me hard and got me wondering if the people I hang out with are those who are truly there to support and encourage me all the way. I know that if I had a good friend who couldn't change his/her situation for the better (helpless might be a better word), I would suck up any inconvenience I might have to support him/her as long as that inconvenience weighs under the inconvenience of the friend. To clarify, let's put it this way: You have a date with the cute Starbucks guy tomorrow. However, your best friend calls you at midnight and asks if you could provide a shoulder to lean on tomorrow because her father just passed away and it's extremely hard to prone by herself. In this case, would you selfishly still go on the date with someone who has little potential (just eye candy) or be there to look after a long, trusted friend?

I honestly don't know what to make of this situation, especially cause I thought a few people would choose me over the cute Starbucks guy. =T